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When I was little I wasn't crazy about this song, but I saw the video recently & almost died. The animation for then is sick!....AND the song kinda Jams?

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Nine facts about the maritime history of swallow tattoos:

1.Swallow tattoos were traditionally used to show how many miles a sailor had traveled -- five thousand nautical miles got you one swallow, ten thousand the second.

2. Sometimes, when a sailor had retired, he would tattoo laundry hanging between the two swallows.

3. If a sailor's friend was killed at sea, one of his swallows would have a dagger tattooed through it.

4. Swallows always return home -- so the swallow tattooed on a sailor was meant to symbolize that he would return.

5. And if the sailor didn't return, the swallows would help carry him to heaven.

6. In England, the swallow tattoo indicates a willingness to fight -- "these fists fly."

7. Apparently, in American jails, the swallow tattoo can mean that the wearer is into white power. (but hopefully, with an ever-growing number of liberally inclined young ladies getting this tattoo, that message is getting diluted.)

8. To a sailor at sea, the sight of sparrows meant land, and a return home.

9. Luke 12:6 says..."Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? And not one of them is forgotten before God."

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Pacifica buries the Whale & the Stank....

A couple months ago, my ole’ man & me, were watching the daytime local news on a day we were both off. We sat there listening to the story of the whale "situation" a couple miles south of us, in Pacifica and really just shook our heads.

The whale washed up in the summer on the beach opposite Sharp Park Golf Course, west of the 16th hole. The golf course is located in Pacifica, but the property belongs to San Francisco. A dispute has arisen between the city of Pacifica and San Francisco, which owns the golf course, as to who should be responsible for disposing of the rotting flesh which, residents say, has been there for several months. All that time, the San Francisco Recreation and Park Department has received calls about the whale. So apparently Wednesday, the department at last decided to dispatch two staffers to Sharp Park for an official surveying party to figure out which city was on the hook for the whale and its possible removal.

Officials in Pacifica said they had known all along it wasn't their whale. Public Works Director Van Ocampo said Pacifica would be glad to bury San Francisco's whale and send San Francisco a bill for the undertaking. "It's their property," he said. Pacifica beachcomber Brenda McManus, who has strolled past the whale dozens of times since it washed up, gazed at the dead creature and the ocean beyond and said she did not understand why the whale needed to be surveyed, because it was located right there. But sometimes a stinky situation is worst than a sticky one in which you have won. So the city of Pacifica decided enough was enough and buried a carcass that washed up on a beach seven months ago, even though S.F. staffers determined it was their problem.

Katarina Camber snaps a picture of a whale carcass on the beach across from Sharp Park Golf Course in Pacifica on Wednesday. Stanky shot!

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≈I recently {last November} I went back home for about a month, and I found alot of changes and not all to bad, ya know? I love that Urban culture is penetrating the glossy exterior that my city fronts. A friend from Frisco recently was relating how he had a 1st time visitor 2 Miami tell him recently that 2 someone from Cali: "everything looks so shinny! ~& not in a bad way..."

Uhmm....Well, I had 2 laugh cause I guess it's kinda true. The brightest sun imaginable with impossible humidity penetrating everything it lands on ~like it's was a punishment that you have 2 put up with because you feel guilty surrounded by the bluest waters of the ocean everywhere u go. For~Real, {thats if your not in the Keys, cause then your just in them.} I was even laughing @ the wall next 2 the the freeway on the way to the MIA airport {neau 2 me, I think,-built after I moved?} cause even it had like "colored glass lookin" things cut-out of the concrete, Right there on ugly-ass Le June Rd. I may have been laughing, but it was better to see sunlight through colored glass than to see what's behind it: the airlines that have gone under which used 2 have corporate offices in Miami but are still there because they have to have a space to conduct the business of pensions & such. Like Pan Am, ect..

I guess you can miss shit you thought played out once, after enough time, ~Word! At the time of my departure the only thing that had me hesitant to return to San Frantastic was the upcoming Art Basel 2007. I always loved that week along with the Winter Music Conference. I had 2 leave sometime though, my trip HAD already gone from 1 week 2 a couple days short of a month.Primaryflights video for Art Basel makes me smile, cause it reminds me of the under documented urban art scene that creeps all that glitters in the Magic City!

Art Basel seemed to be dope as I expected, it IS considered one of the hugest art shows worldwide. The New York Times has called Art Basel the «Olympics of the Art World». It's billed as "world's premier international art show for Modern and contemporary works, Art Basel features nearly 300 leading galleries from North America, Latin America, Europe, Asia, Australia and Africa. More than 2,000 artists, ranging from the great masters of Modern art to the latest generation of emerging stars, are represented in the show's multiple sections. The exhibition includes the highest-quality paintings, sculptures, drawings, installations, photographs, video and editioned works. " Blahh, Blah, BlaH!

One thing I never would have thought I'd see though would be the artist on the flick above bombin' Miami alleys! Who would of thunk it? They even kicked shit off with my dreamboat Iggy POP playing the 1st night. I've never actually seen him on the mic, only @ the Outback Steakhouse on the beach where my spot was fully blown by a loving friend, which resulted in me forgetting my name like a retard in front of him.

Well, I did get articles & pix from alot of my peeps so if I had to miss it personally then @ least I got to see it digitally from the left coast. Anyway, next week will be the WMC & I'll be missing that as well cause I'm in the middle of movin. I'm on a major grind this year to raise my game. Meaning staying on track is integral. Even though I can make some loot at the conference, the truth is that even making some flow, not paying for where I stay or even any of the Dj sets or partys we end at, ~@ conference's end -good times & not much more is what I'm left with. I just wrote that like that's horrible, no? God, if I wasn't movin' I'd bag that up. Stay focused one!

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The third installment of Printed Matter, a group art show dedicated to prints, including woodcut, silk screen, lithography, relief, etching, and others, opened Saturday night at Giant Robot In Upper Haight.

I really dug the show, but I have an unhealthy obsession with CMYK,  

~so my opinion might be a tad biased.

The pieces where interesting because of the technique behind them. Pieces are printed on wood, book covers, bristol board, uncut sticker sheets, and smorgasboard of ink on paper, that include: etching, lenox, also watercolor papers. All kinds of screen prints, grocco, giclee, and block prints are available for really decent prices.

≈I really dug checking real creative etchings, lithographs, & letterpress pieces, my favorite. For a small show, the creative technique behind the pieces, was abundant, like the rubber stamp & toner transfer piece. Really though, the 18 color screen print with blood added, was worth the trip itself, Teehee!

 

 

 

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The man, myth, the legend. Shepard Fairey is well known for his prolific stickering and flyposting of his propaganda-style images. I am among the many who loves his vector -mixed with well-versed history tidbits images. As the Obey tagline says "The medium message." This week, Democratic hopeful Barack Obama received a significant nod of approval from a popular cultural figure. Oh, and Teddy Kennedy said he liked him, too.







Here’s what Fairey says about the work on his website:

"I believe with great conviction that Barack Obama should be the next President.
I have been paying close attention to him since the Democratic convention in 2004. I feel that he is more a statesman than a politician. He was against the war when it was an unpopular position (and Hillary was for the war at that time), Obama is for energy and environmental conservation. He is for healthcare reform."

Check him out for yourself: barackobama.com.
Proceeds from this print go to produce prints for a larger statewide poster campaign.

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When the freakin messenger becomes the trickster!

Right...So last summer I was reading up on things to help me with my tarot reading. I noticed that some things in past readings that I had done were actually revealed to me I just was to green to pick them up. Of course it was another Mercury buddy that pointed it out to me. Big up Sadao. Damn Gemini's! Anyway, I came across some stuff that seemed a little to complex but still interesting none the less while I was reading, so I put ink to pad with the main points & forgot about it. It was about the Mercury Retrograde.

So we quickly pan to the beginning of this year, I was about to travel & I fully had to check myself , cause something was off. I couldn't put my finger on it. After some thought, I decided to travel anyway. I know better than to ignore the gut. I may have known better but you wouldn't have known it. I made myself unavailable & missed the fact that a good friend passed away while I was in town, I also found myself in the middle of some silly shit with 2 close friends and it concluded with me losing my wallet. Losing my wallet was a bigger deal than I thought cause I couldn't dip quick enough yet without id, I couldn't travel. Fuck it, One foot in front of the other ~right? When I went 4 my license duplicate, it was suspended!

⇒LARGE is the amount of Listerine I've been using to get rid of the nasty taste from that trip & I haven't arrived there yet.

≈A week & a half after the trip, my laptop {2nd set of hands} took a shit on me and so did my desktop. I also had blown 6 light bulbs in that time. WTF?......I sat there reflecting, thinking how all this was really so shifty, then it hit me............FUCK YOU MERCURY!

Let me introduce you: Mercury, the messenger of the gods, symbolizes mentality: our intellect and mental outlook, the way we think and communicate. Planetary lord of Gemini and Virgo, this fast-moving planet stands for ideas, methods and information, especially as expressed through communication and media. Mercury rules writers, travelers, analysts, magicians, salespeople, astrologers and all types of consultants. Through his rulership of our hands, Mercury also reveals our manual dexterity and mechanical skills and since he's also the god of the crossroads, he governs transportation too: how we get where we're going, both physically and mentally.

Cause if you don't know, now you know! Mercury may be known as "The Messenger," but when this fast-moving orb appears to turn backward in the sky -- as it does 3 times a year or like about every 4 months when Mercury's orbit around the Sun aligns with Earth's. Since Mercury is closest to the Sun, its orbit is shorter allowing it to cover more territory faster. ⇒ a better name might be "The Bitch Trickster." That's because during periods of Mercury's retrograde movement, ⇒ human communication, ⇒connections and all sorts of mechanical things can get out of whack. Since Mercury is the planet that reps communication & motion, when it goes retrograde, there is a sense that movement-based things ⇒ such as communication, travel, traffic, business negotiations, etc. ⇒ are interrupted and slowed. Cars breakdown, calls get missed, or you say the wrong thing at the wrong time. Energetically, it can feel as though the universe is blocking your efforts at progress.

If you're aware of when Mercury is in a retrograde state, you'll have a better chance of anticipating potential delays and heading off the trickster (allow extra time to get to the airport, for example OR MAKE SURE U HAVE ID). Even if this astrological influence wreaks some havoc in your world, it won't last long ⇒ Mercury usually stays retrograde for just 22 days at a time.

Another upside is that Mercury Retrograde periods also provide an opportunity to reflect on the past and take stock of life's little lessons. Since reflection is encouraged, using it to influence u creatively can work in a Virgo & Gemini's favor. The knowledge you gain ⇒perhaps hard-earned can allow you to move more swiftly forward when Mercury turns direct again. You can end up in dicey conversations or get stuck in unexpected traffic jams. After an hour of trying to explain what you mean to your other half, you give up frustrated. Don't be surprised if you often feel tangled, trapped, confused or just fuckin STUCK during this period. The word "retrograde" alludes to "re-do" or "re-think," the theme of retrofitting or redoing can also come up for you. So supposedly, you may find a need to reinforce your life with more intentionality {throw a little intention behind who u do}..... ⇒ strengthen relationships, repeat instructions and rebuild foundations.

Mercury Retrograde is a good reminder that we're not as hard as we might like to think. So LET GO! ~peaceful surrender is perhaps the best tool you can wield during this time. Go with the flow {however whack the flow may get}. Trust me, this cycle has been the 1st one I've been aware of & intentionally let MANY things go as well as the whole "with the flow" crap......Well, I won't front, the quarter was close 2 my mouth more than once from feelin REAL PLAYED! It's a challenge to know full on of unpredictability of life, that type of challenge can humble a sista with a quickness. Tell u what though, better than feeling helpless. Prepare yourself ahead of time by reinforcing your communications infrastructure, take care of business, and slow down and enjoy the mystery of the universe............ANYWAY!

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Jan/26/08 08:41 ET Montel Williams turned the question on live television when he choose to focus on the solders dying in Iraq rather than the passing of Heath Ledger. Fox broke to go to commercials & Montel did not return for a further segment. Fox owned stations chose not to renew publication of his show after this incident.

• The Montel Williams Show will end its run at the end of this season after 17 years on the air. CBS Television Distribution is offering the “Best of Montel” for fall, which includes 52 weeks of highlights. “We have been honoured to have Montel as a part of our family for the past 17 years, and we’re very excited that Montel will live on through these ‘best of’ episodes,” said John Nogawski of CBS. The Hollywood Reporter

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♦TATIANA♦

SF Zoo officials uncertain how tiger escaped enclosure: saying locks were in place.

San Francisco police are investigating the possibility that one of the victims in the fatal tiger mauling on Christmas Day climbed over a waist-high fence and then dangled a leg or other body part over the edge of a moat that kept the big cat away from the public, sources close to the investigation. The minimal evidence found at the scene included a shoe & blood in an area between the gate & the edge of the 25- to 30-foot-wide moat, raising questions about what role, if any, the victims might have had in accidentally helping the animal escape. The 3 victims, all young men from San Jose, were visiting the zoo together. They were all present just outside the tiger's grotto when the tiger escaped, killed 17-year-old Carlos Sousa Jr. with a savage slash to the throat, and injured the other two. The survivors, are brothers ages 19:Paul Dhaliwal and 23:Kulbir Dhaliwal. 911 call

San Francisco Zoo Director Manuel Mollinedo said the zoo has a response team that is armed with tranquilizers and firearms, but that the scene unfolded "so quickly that the officers found (Tatiana) first." The officers who shot the 350-pound animal were alerted through a 911 call placed by a zoo employee. Zoo officials are still unsure how the tiger escaped the enclosure. Authorities believe it initially attacked all three victims, killing Sousa. Officials believe the cat then followed blood trails to Terrace Cafe, where it cornered the other boys. They suffered deep bites and claw cuts on their heads, necks, arms and hands. The first attack happened right outside the Siberian’s enclosure - the victim died at the scene. A group of four officers came across his body when they entered the dark zoo grounds. The second victim was about 300 yards away, in front of the Terrace Cafe. The man was sitting on the ground, blood running from gashes in his head and Tatiana sitting next to him. The cat attacked the man again. The officers approached the tiger with their handguns. Tatiana moved in their direction and several of the officers fired, all 4 fired their .40-caliber handguns, hitting the tiger an unknown number of times -killing the animal. Only then did they see the third victim, who had also been mauled.

Now, the police search indicates that investigators believe the young men taunted the tiger, a misdemeanor. In seeking the warrant, police said they were investigating whether an unspecified felony had been committed. "As a result of this investigation, (police believe) that the tiger may have been taunted/agitated by its eventual victims," Matthews wrote in the affidavit. Police believe that "this factor contributed to the tiger escaping from its enclosure and attacking its victims," she said. An autopsy conducted by a zoo veterinarian on the Siberian tiger after police shot it to death showed that the animal had been "very determined to get out," Matthews said. Its claws were broken and splintered by clambering up the concrete moat wall, Matthews quoted the veterinarian as saying."This behavior may be consistent with a tiger that has been agitated and/or taunted," Matthews said. Police found a pine cone and a tree branch in the tiger's outdoor grotto when they searched it soon after the attack.

One of the two survivors told the father of the deceased Carlos Sousa that the three had yelled and waved at the animal while standing atop the railing of the tiger's exhibit, police said in court documents filed. Paul denied throwing anything into the enclosure or otherwise antagonizing the animal, according to an account contained in police investigators' request for a search warrant in connection with the Christmas Day attack. Police armed with the warrant and seeking evidence that the men had taunted the tiger searched the 2002 BMW belonging to Dhaliwal's 23-year-old brother, Kulbir, on Wednesday. They also reviewed the brothers' cell phones for any photos they might have taken before the tiger attacked. Police said they had recovered messages and images but apparently nothing incriminating in connection with the tiger attack. Investigators seized a small amount of marijuana as well as a partially filled bottle of Grey Goose vodka from the car, according to the inventory that police submitted from the search.

Both Dhaliwal brothers were hospitalized with head wounds after the maulings. Matthews said in the warrant application that Paul Dhaliwal's blood alcohol level had been measured after the attack at 0.16 percent, twice the legal level for drunkenness. Kulbir Dhaliwal's blood alcohol level was 0.04 percent, and Sousa's was 0.02 percent, Matthews said. All three also had marijuana in their systems, Matthews said. The drug can stay in blood for several days, but Kulbir Dhaliwal told police that the three had smoked marijuana and had each had "a couple shots of vodka" Christmas Day before leaving the brothers' home in San Jose, the affidavit said. According to the elder Sousa's account to police, Dhaliwal told him that he, his brother and the younger Sousa had been "waving their hands and yelling at the tiger" just before the animal bounded up a 12 1/2-foot wall from its dry moat and attacked them.

Cell phone call to 911 made by Kulbir Dhaliwa

Paul Dhaliwal - referred to in affidavit by his formal name, Amritpal - "said the three of them were standing on the railing looking at the tiger," Sousa told police. The 3-foot-tall metal railing is a few feet from the edge of the tiger moat. Dhaliwal told Sousa that "when they got down they heard a noise in the bushes, and the tiger was jumping out of the bushes" on Paul Dhaliwal, the affidavit said.Paul Dhaliwal apparently was reluctant to talk immediately after the attack, according to Matthews' affidavit. One of the paramedics who rode with him in an ambulance to San Francisco General Hospital told police she had tried to interview him but that he had said only, "I don't want anyone to know," Matthews wrote. When the unidentified paramedic persisted, Dhaliwal told her to "just shut up," the affidavit said. He also denied having a cell phone after first asking the paramedic if she wanted his phone number and laughing, the affidavit said. Sources close to the investigation have told The San Francisco Chronicle that it appeared the brothers made a pact of silence while riding together in the ambulance to the hospital. "Don't tell them what we did," Kulbir reportedly told Paul in the ambulance, paramedics told police. Authorities also have the report of a zoo visitor who said she saw a group that included Sousa taunting the zoo's lions shortly before the tiger escaped.

Tatiana: 4 year old siberian Tiger

The tiger: Tatiana, who was born in captivity,a female named Tatiana, was the same animal that attacked a female trainer ripping her flesh off in front of dozens of onlookers after a feeding demonstration on Dec. 22, 2006. The trainer was bitten on both arms and underwent extensive surgeries. The zoo’s Lion House was closed for almost nine months following that incident. An investigation of that incident by the California Division of Occupational Safety and Health faulted the zoo, which beefed up the pen where big cats are kept. “This incident is totally separate and apart” from the 2006 one, Mollinedo said, adding that since the 2006 attack,Tatiana “seemed to be very well adjusted into that exhibit "There was never any consideration for putting her down -the tiger was acting like a normal tiger," Mollinedo said today. The public feedings at the Lion House resumed in September after about $250,000 in safety upgrades. last year’s attack, the zoo added customized steel mesh over the bars, built in a feeding shoot and increased the distance between the public and the cats. There were five tigers at the zoo - three Sumatrans and two Siberians. Officials initially worried that four tigers had escaped, but soon learned only Tatiana had escaped.

Jack Hanna, the director emeritus of the Columbus Zoo and a frequent guest on nationally televised talk shows, predicted that other U.S. zoos would reassess their tiger enclosures if it turns out the tiger was able to leap out. “This is a first in this country,” Hanna said in a telephone interview Wednesday. “I’ve never heard of an individual (zoo visitor) being killed by an animal.

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I love shit like this. If this were talking about Miami Beach, we'd have to say my opinion would be biased, -COME ON- I was born there. Now, far from being a local, on the subject of San Francisco- my opinion is one of an observer.

So here it is, my 2 cents:
•When visiting NYC, I've stayed & had fun in Manhattan & with bridge & tunnelers, but I've never heard anyone use "bridge & tunnelers" here. In fact, 2 friends from the bay area asked about the term.
•The "burners" do go on about the fest much, (wo!) but I won't talk to much shit, because I haven't been yet.
•The "summer" is ....a hard subject for someone from Miami to even talk about. You do see goofy peeps in shorts, but hey, wasn't Mark twain from the south? The quote is not that far off.
•I use Frisco all the time, Whatev-!
•I've caught myself saying "hella" more than once, & internally giggled my but off.
•I live @ the end of the christmas line, I love being so close 2 the ocean, but the "Noel" line, is no joke.

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I love Biographies. Always have. I don't really even like reading fiction too much, and reading an interesting person's life story can be great nonfiction. I love reading a interesting personal quote thats unexpected. Recently while using the biography channel as background noise, I heard of Bobby Kennedy's favorite quote being from Dante's inferno. Something about "the deepest depths of hell & neutrality". I tossed my ibook aside & listened for more. Unfortunately, all I got was an inspiring story about how b.Kennedy suddenly took on the civil rights cause after tragedy was befallen on 2 him after a life of privilege.


Is being neutral or open minded a bad thing? As a kid, my summer's were spent in a 3rd world country, been to both the Caribbean & Europe more than once. I was even the only American girl in my 5 girl dorm apartment, the 1st time I went to college. I always subconsciously felt that 2 enjoy alot of these experiences, you had 2 personally own a little open mindedness. Looking at it again though, maybe it just might be the other way around.

I'm not against reviewing opinions in life that i hold or have held. I'm not a republican, so you can't scare me with the flip-flop tagline. Was this a trait I should not be so proud of as a start 2 mature intellectually? hhuumm... Well, 1st things first, you know, -maybe I'm not so bad. So the first stupid quiz regarding the matter I saw, I took. This was my result:


You Are 84% Open Minded
You are so open minded that your brain may have fallen out!
Well, not really. But you may be confused on where you stand.
You don't have a judgmental bone in your body, and you're very accepting.
You enjoy the best of every life philosophy, even if you sometimes
contradict yourself.

How open-minded are you?



Pretty funny stuff huh? Well, I could have let that get to me, if I gave a shit, but instead I looked up the original quote that started this. It said this:

"The darkest places in hell are reserved for those who maintain their neutrality in times of moral crisis."
Dante Alighieri

See that,.. it said "neutrality in times of moral crisis" that's not me,
I'm totally in the clear ....At least for that! ha

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So, I come in right about where there's talk about both things being true. Although, I have yet to see secular terrorist?
·Terrorist= Care about some shit ~a whole lot!
·Secular= Don't give a shit 'bout nuthin'!
It was a good one though.

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It hurts me 2 say my man mighty Mos, needs to read up on the period of Muslim rule.

• In 622 C.E., Muhammad makes the journey from Mecca to Medina, known as Hegira, marks the foundation of Islam.

• In 638 C.E The Arabs, belonging to the new Islamic religion and led by the Caliph Omar, capture Jerusalem, ushering in a four-hundred-and-fifty-year period of Muslim rule.

• In 685 The Caliph Abd el-Malik commissions the Dome of the Rock on the Temple Mount. This shrine commemorates the spot from which, according to the Koran, Muhammad was carried on his magical horse to the "farthest place," from which he visited Allah in heaven. Muslim tradition says that the "farthest place" was Jerusalem. The Al-Aqsa Mosque, opposite the Dome of the Rock, is built for prayer at the beginning of the eighth century.

• In 900s-1000s C.E. A number of Muslim groups fight for control of the city.

• In 1099 The Crusaders, Western Christians led by Godfrey Bouillon, capture Jerusalem from the Muslims in the First Crusade. Pope Urban II had called upon Christians to recapture the holy city. The Crusaders massacre both Muslims and Jews alike, and forbid their settlement in the city.

• In 1187 Muslims recapture the city under Sultan Saladin and Muslims and Jews return to the city in large numbers, reinstating Muslim control. Churches are converted into mosques and Muslim shrines are restored.

• In 1228 The Crusaders return and, through a treaty, the Muslims surrender Jerusalem to Frederick II, who crowns himself King of Jerusalem in the Church of the Holy Sepulchre.

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So back to the we shit, There's enough blame to go around history a couple of times. Pardon the pun, but wouldn't it be the bomb if we were different.
WE WHAT?

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Current mood: pensive

Machiavellian- [mak-ee-uh-vel-ee-uhn]
Main Entry: Cunning
Part of Speech: Adjective

• Definition: Devious

• Synonyms: Machiavellian, acute, artful, astute, cagey, canny, crafty, deep, fancy footwork, foxy, guileful, insidious, keen, knowing, sharp, shifty, shrewd, slick, slippery, sly, sly boots,smart, smarts, smooth, streetwise, subtle, tricky, wary, wily

• Antonyms: artless, gullible, honest, ingenuous, naive, sincere

1) being or acting in accordance with the principles of government analyzed in Machiavelli's The Prince, in which political expediency is placed above morality and the use of craft and deceit to maintain the authority and carry out the policies of a ruler is described.

2) characterized by subtle or unscrupulous cunning, deception, expediency, or dishonesty:
He resorted to Machiavellian tactics in order to get ahead.

I'm at this weird place right now,
emotionally speaking.

I'm not wanting to verbally express myself

At a time when I have so much to express.

It's weird because, as a gemini,-

I am to have supposedly been born a natural communicator.

No, I haven't misplaced the infamous verbal gift
(times a curse).

But I have found that when I want to sum up my
current mood, I end up feeling stumped.

I find myself in a unexpected transitional phase which is seems to require caution and restraint.

In the past, my feelings have been based on criticism & suspicion, but they are not this time.

It maybe, that karmically,

I have felt the real depth of fully loving someone in a way that almost seemed abstract to me.

But really, I'm too much of a skeptic
~2 be a true mystic.

Surprised I'm not. Cold... No. Detached? maybe, but not fully by choice-

I do belong to the element of air after all.

..You Are Somewhat Machiavellian

You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead...But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself. You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place. You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!

How Machiavellian Are You?

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Esquire Magazine 3/1958

"The Beat Generation, that was a vision that we had, John Clellon Holmes and I, and Allen Ginsberg in an even wilder way, in the late forties, of a generation of crazy, illuminated hipsters suddenly rising and roaming America, serious, bumming and hitchhiking everywhere, ragged, beatific, beautiful in an ugly graceful new way-

-a vision gleaned from the way we had heard the word 'beat' spoken on street corners on Times Square and in the Village, in other cities in the downtown city night of postwar America--beat, meaning down and out but full of intense conviction--We'd even heard old 1910 Daddy Hipsters of the streets speak the word that way, with a melancholy sneer--It never meant juvenile delinquents, it meant characters of a special spirituality who didn't gang up but were solitary Bartlebies staring out the dead wall window of our civilization--the subterraneans heroes who'd finally turned from the 'freedom' machine of the West and were taking drugs, digging bop, having flashes of insight, experiencing the 'derangement of the senses,' talking strange, being poor and glad, prophesying a new style for American culture, a new style (we thought), a new incantation-

-The same thing was almost going on in the postwar France of Sartre and Genet and what's more we knew about it- -But as to the actual existence of a Beat Generation, chances are it was really just an idea in our minds-- We'd stay up 24 hours drinking cup after cup of black coffee, playing record after record of Wardell Gray, Lester Young, Dexter Gordon, Willie Jackson, Lennie Tristano and all the rest, talking madly about that holy new feeling out there in the streets-

-We'd write stories about some strange beatific Negro hepcat saint with goatee hitchhiking across Iowa with taped up horn bringing the secret message of blowing to other coasts, other cities, like a veritable Walter the Penniless leading an invisible First Crusade- -We had our mystic heroes and wrote, nay sung novels about them, erected long poems celebrating the new 'angels' of the American underground--In actuality there was only a handful of real hip swinging cats and what there was vanished mightily swiftly during the Korean War when (and after) a sinister new kind of efficiency appeared in America, maybe it was the result of the universalization of Television and nothing else (the Polite Total Police Control of Dragnet's 'peace' officers) but the beat characters after 1950 vanished into jails and madhouses, or were shamed into silent conformity, the generation itself was shortlived and small in number."

Jack Kerouac



I have always been in love with the beat generation.
Their ideas, hopes, dreams, smarts, adventures, ect.
Living so close to their birthplace kinda inspires me in a way that I didn't expect.
I'm like a dork when around the city lights book store.
Anyway, I recently read Jack Kerouac's
Philosophy of the Beat Generation in what would have been a older esquire mag article.
The man's mind is beautiful.

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